Vent out the Dents - Freak Re-incarnated ...

I am Back .....
Thanks Friends ... Thanks for all of your affectionate Mails & lovely criticisms over my idiotic piece of s**t ..... And also apecial thanks to those who helped me add a few unique and valuable words in my Dictionary of slangs after caliing at 1:00 am .....

For all those who Loved me, Hated me and even given me a big damned **** over my pathetic point of view, I would like to oblige to my part of continuing of what I have started, that is Blogging out my point of View, no matter how much pathetic it may seem to a few guys .....

People always used to tell me that this is not my best choice of career, as I have chosen like most of the fringe guys in 'GREAT' country ... After passing my +2 levels, may be due to ignorance or may be due to my casual attitude I have followed the suit of most of the other guys out there .... I have chosen Computer to Ruin ... er ... Rule my Life ..... May be I have done a Mistake ... But, I am not complaining about that ..... I accept that mistakes are also part of our Life ... They actually shape your future and path and you end up being the person you are now ... May be with some other decision taken at some other point of time would have made me an entirely different person and may be I would not have been writing a Blog now and would have been doing some other kind of Boringly important stuff at this very moment ... I strongly believe that what exactly make you what you are today, are the numerous 'Decisions' that you have taken in your Journey of Life .....

I am happy about the fact that despite being a terrible Loser, I may have actually lived a life, which a number of people will be craving for ... I have done quite a few things in my Life, which I myself could never even thought of in a sane and normal mind ... I have done the most unexpected things one can imagine in an average Indian guy's Life .....

May be that is the reason why most of the people fail to understand me, may be that is why people fail to accept me, they try to outcast me and it is then I just shell myself in as a 'Hypocrite' and live a 'Normal' life as a sane and sensible person and carry on my regular and sensible duties .....
In each of those moments I somehow try hard to behave like a pathetic matured gentleman, I try not to show the idiots around (who always try to show-off) their real place, I sincerely try to keep my mouth from offending anybody's feelings by putting in the crude reality ..... Even if it shows me a stupid fool I still try to respect their pathetic sense of humour ..... And in worst cases if still I can not stand those fringe bas***ds, I act as the Joker who fools around (atleast nobody will take the words seriously, right ?????) ..... he he he he he .....

Well, enough of these filthy idiocy ..... Lets get back on Track ...
I grew up as an extremely promising kid, who never kept up his Promises and sometimes deliberately acted as a Forgetful Fool to provide the absolute cover for my 'Regularly Irregular' routine .....
So, due to my 'Regularly Irregular' and 'Responsibly Irresponsible' nature, I used to enjoy enough time to freak out ... However, the by-product of my desired leisurely Independence was that most of the time I got myself out of any major decision making by my Family, Friends, Club, Institute etc. etc. etc. .....
It is not that I used to complain ... Why should I ??? I enjoyed myself having fun knowing others are working while I am out of their view having my bit of fun ..... Rather in a perfected form of art of acting, sometimes I used to portray my artificial disliking over me having no proper role in any of the activities around .....
Since I was a born Rule-breaker, so sometimes I used to break my own Rule also and used to sweat it out, just to get a first hand experience of responsibilities ..... Also sometimes mere curiousity led me working on something to get experienced over a new opportunity at the drop of the hat ..... But you know there is a saying that, curiousity kills the Cat .....
It has always been that I am notoriously gifted of doing most of the things very nicely, may be it was due to some now-extinct artistic nature that was present in me or something else may be ..... So, when eventually others used to get encouraged over my working skills, the Panic button in my brain used to start ringing violently ..... My mind used to shudder over the fact that I will be doing the job in my hand for some extended period of time and may be I will be taken for granted for this job from next time onwards and I will horribly be missing the other opportunities of the experiences that I could possibly have ..... I would eventually be losing my carefree free-flowing life .... The result were instantaneous ... Suddenly the outcome of the job in my hand turns to give a 'terrible' result instead of being 'terrific' as it had been ... People used to get confused over this sudden Minima in my steadily increasing Graph, of work being taken into a form of Art .....
They would have then blamed it over my lack of concentration and lack of motivation and themselves getting more than 'tensed & eager' they would take the responsibility of their Job back ... hence I would eagerly clear my hand off in an artificially created mood with a very ashamed face ..... Shame on me ..... he he he ...
Though sometimes my Ideas used to backfire, as I had to really be ashamed in some of those cases ..... Those who knew me closely, they could really identify between the two extreme cases ..... Although my facial expression remained the same, I couldn't hide my ears getting Vermillion-Red when I was truly Ashamed ..... I have myself checked this infront of the mirror and found out that truly a very few people in this World could actually understand a bit of me .....
Inspite of the disgust or humiliation or anger or fear or the grief may be, in those moments this simple bit of fact used to make me Happy that, atleast somebody in the World tried to understand me .....
There was only one other set of cases where my ears used to get Vermillion-Red (even more than that) ... But, I won't disclose that to you guys ..... ;-)

Happiness is very rare yet very easily available ..... As if it resides within thin air, one moment it is here, next moment it is not ..... If you want to be happy you can be happy inspite of a thousand hindrances, and if you don't, then even God may seem like just another B-Grade comedian who himself laughs more than pulling out any of the jokes ......
However before understanding my point one has to remember that by 'Happiness' I wanted to mean complete Happiness that is where your conscience will be happy along with your straight and flat Logical Mind ..... You can not be happy, no matter how much do you try, if your conscience does not agree to your reason ...
If you could understand my point then I believe I have written the preface of my Book in a Comprehensive manner (Else the Book is not for You ... hi hi hi) ........

However Friends, today I was having a "very long" discussion with one of my colleagues where I have put up my point ... And for the entire "15" minutes of the discussion I was trying to explain my point ..... Getting frustrated over this philosophical (and may be traumatic to him) point to talk over, he politely asked me to compile all of my precious thinking together ..... hence you all get today's blabbering .........

To all of you, please don't curse me over phone after Midnight ........ Just scroll a little further down this blog and ... Voila ..... You have found a Link which leads a white piece of area to make your day as a red-letter one, by innovating some of the finest and most wonderful slangs which others will consider as something called as Comments .........

More later ... Time to go ....
Regards .....